I don’t know who I am
I change my appearance to be someone who I am not
To see how life differs
From red to black,
to brown, blonde
What if the scale was 50 pounds less
Would it finally be worth living?
Sometimes I don’t think I’m human
Instead a chameleon of insecurities
But I love myself
Why wouldn’t I love myself?
I wish I could stop being so mean
But I love to be sad
I love listening to music that makes me cry
My blanket hugs me better than my mom ever did
I love being comfortable,
Everybody does
Now I spend my days watching tiktoks and reels of girls having girls night and cooking videos
While I purposely eat under 2000 calories in hopes of being in my prime again
I wish I made an effort to keep my friends;
Limerence